Ugh

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I've been so tired every time I front. I don't have the IRL social energy that the twins have right now and that's saying something because neither of them enjoys interacting with my family. It's so weird.. I should be the most comfortable around them but I'm very very not anymore.. Eugh. I can't wait until we move into the dorms because then at least the twins, and anyone else we find, can kinda be themselves. I'm fronting for the second time since we became a system. It's odd. I don't mind fronting but I do feel odd as I'm essentially unconscious whenever I'm not at front right now. Stress has.. taken a toll on me I think. Taako shook me awake earlier begging me to front. Something he saw online reminded him of some bad memories/lack thereof.. I feel bad. Besides taking front, there wasn't anything I could do to help. He just went and sat with Lup and she comforted him. I.. I wish I coulda done more but.. sometimes there's no replacement for sisterly help.